"My condition is not unhappiness, but it is also not happiness, not indifference, not weakness, not fatigue, not another interest – so what is it then?”  Franz Kafka

Kafka was probably referring to his inability to write as he stated in his diary.  I have often felt I am in this place when I cannot express myself authentically.  I find that it is harder to express myself in person even though I am seen as an outgoing talker.  My job is to entertain and please.  I find I can be more authentic when I write it down.  I like the barrier of the written word.  I can write and be real without seeing a reaction.  I think I know why.